| Someone ask me to update HAHA!! |
[Aug. 4th, 2009|01:38 pm] |
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| | Home! | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Bleed No More - Silverstein | ] |
I am sorry i am kinda lazy to update my blog like who will read also lol. But anyway i guess i shall do it since quite a few people says this is dead i shall make it pretty quite alive. Anyway sch is great, same shit same thing everyday, currently learning how to do anime animation and guess what its fucking hard lol. But i can manage it seems pretty easy but just that i need alot of patience doing it. Still a long way till can go jamming. What is there oh ya this national day PAINT BALL!! time for war awesome shit but well after that i gonna be broke but oh well need to go get my passport update soon. Besides that i think thats all that have happen, ya indeed life is boring but oh well what more can i do jump off a building? |
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| I Am Sorry For Everything! |
[Jul. 12th, 2009|02:45 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Josh House | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Harder Than You Know - ETF | ] |
[Verse]
You said this could only get better
There's no rush cause we have each other
You said this would last forever
But now I doubt if I was your only lover
[Pre-Chorus]
Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you
[Chorus]
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy
[Verse]
How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I'll go away (I'll go away)
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain
So where's the fire? You've become the rain
[Pre-Chorus]
Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you
[Chorus]
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl you're driving me so crazy
And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go (I guess I'll have to go)
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)
[Pre-Solo]
So I'll make the call
And I'll leave today
I'm gonna miss you cause I love you baby
And I'll make the call
I'm leaving today
And leaving always drives me crazy
Leaving always drives me crazy
[Chorus]
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy
And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl You're driving me so crazy
[Outro]
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy
Goodbye, take care alright! |
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| She is staring at me..... |
[Jun. 16th, 2009|02:23 am] |
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| | Josh House | ] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
Tuesday was freaking tiring stayed at josh house watched the grudge 3 fucking lame not a bit scary we kept laughing at how she open her mouth so big and kill people with her bad breath. After was like singing songs all the way till we fell asleep then the next day josh woke up late cause he suppose to meet up with his friend for project and i suppose to wake him up but i failed guess we both overslept lol then i want to meet my mom eat lunch head back home and go meet josh skate and i still cant do ollie yet.....great nvm wed another day of hardcore practice. I am so shocked when she told me she got a crush on me i didth even expected it i just felt like woah just stunt. But then i know i dont want to hurt another girl heart and she is my really good friend i cant bear to lose her no i cant sometimes i think shall i ever be in love again knowing i can never forgive myself for what i did to my ex, i treated her like shit really like shit, no one deserve a guy like me. Sometimes whenever i see them looking at and smiling it feels like i touch thier heart like they just feel so happy around me i dont know and that feeling anytime will turn into love......idk maybe i do deserve another shot in love cause i know deep down i dont mean to hurt anyone. |
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| Oh They Way You Move! |
[Jun. 13th, 2009|03:58 pm] |
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| | gloomy | ] |
Gosh everyone feeling like zombie haha even i feel a lil like one the toxic is killing me, ate mac yesterday morning freaking double quarter pounder burger was like huge and freaking fattening but hey i need fats cause i freaking skinny. Well up coming outing is gonna be at either www which is wild wild wet or escape still got free ticks haha well i guess alot of people coming hopefully. Some dude called me this morning from church camp he just want to check things up with me but somehow he does sound unfriendly and i was like ok...... but oh well man tomorrow heading out with mom for some bbq awesome. Well somehow whenever i see a girl dance i just get attracted to her there is this one josh friend dance and the way she move was just freaking sexy i was just like wow got amaze but ya girls who can dance and know how to move it i say keep it up. So many things have happen at the chalet haha wow i miss street fighter!! Oh well another time go Jon house play. Ducky go freak out when i tell her i broke my arm twice lol haha well its okay accidents do happen. Been getting to know her better seems like we share a few things in common haha well for now all i want is a new mp3 which i getting soon so yup. |
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| Hangover!! |
[Jun. 12th, 2009|11:37 pm] |
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| | Iggy House! | ] |
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| |  giddy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Akon - Be With You | ] |
Gosh back from my crazy birthday chalet was really awesome and pretty crazy lol. Met alot of new people they were great and thanks everybody for coming down i hope you all enjoyed yourself. Well and i never gonna to ever drink alot again cause getting wasted and hangover the next day and even vomiting out the toxic is really not a good thing lol. But well it was still fun doing crazy shit like climbing up the chalet roof and coconut trees plus Iggy still owe me 10 bucks for it lol. Got to thank Deb, Andrew and Aisha for helping me up to the bed cause i was like knock out already. Oh and the birthday cake was like huge and i got own got smash by a cake and thrown in to the pool haha was unexpected but haha was the greatest birthday bash ever. Pics will be upload soon so yup and once again thanks everyone for making this happen and coming down for it hope you all had a fucking great time. Untill then and i am still thinking if i should go for the church camp.....will see about it. |
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| Sword Of Dildo!! |
[Jun. 8th, 2009|09:34 pm] |
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| | Home! | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | DavidCook - Come Back To Me | ] |
Lol a must watch show people lesbian vampire killers and tomorrow i will be off to chalet which is gonna be CRAZY!! well at least 30 people or more is coming on the third night wow thats like really alot! Well so far things have been great and i am out of feeling heart broken i am off to a new chapter which i will be looking forward soon but this time things wont be as fuck up as it was no i cant make the same old mistakes everyone deserve a second chance its time i treasure the momments. Get ready to hop on to a wonderful magical ride well i wonder who she will be, who is the girl for me. Untill them i will update you all about the chalet later! CYA!! |
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| I need a mp3! |
[Jun. 4th, 2009|08:17 pm] |
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| | Home!! | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | artistic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Limp Bizkit - Boiler | ] |
Well today want to hang out with Iggy, Eugene and Jon haha laugh our ass off as we talking about the chalet and what crazy things gonna happen there. Everything seems to go well as a new life starts here. I am gonna need to save money to buy a mp3 cause the old one got spoiled damn!! Well and new shirts too. Haha i create this song when i was walking home i guess its nice if i manage to actuall make it.
Here is the lyrics for it, its called Kiss Kiss.
v1:Can you feel the moments coming, can you hear your heatbeat beating
As i come close to you, let me touch your lips with mine.
C:Kiss Kiss, As it twirls, watch it swirls, in this world it feels so real x2 Feel my tounge as i feel your tounge x4
v2:You cant get enough of it, Cause its so addictive
You just want to eat me up , i know you love it baby.
C:Kiss Kiss, As it twirls, watch it swirls, in this world it feels so real x2 Feel my tounge as i feel your tounge x4
B:And this momment stays on forever, forever x2
C:Kiss Kiss, As it twirls, watch it swirls, in this world it feels so real x2 Feel my tounge as i feel your tounge x4
Haha wow pretty nice huh. Well i hope dep come for the chalet kind of miss her lol remembering the last time i met her was drinking with her and it was fucking fun gosh guess this time its gonna be even more crazier!! There is something about her indeed she is very beautiful and matured best part she loves adventure and love to get high haha we got something in commen. Well time to just have fun i had enough of love. If it comes it will, if it doseth then lets just move on. Plus whats the point of looking for a relationship now? I dont think its worthy.... untill then life haha is AWESOME!!! |
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| Move On |
[Jun. 3rd, 2009|08:40 pm] |
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| | Home! | ] |
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| |  happy | ] |
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| | Crossfade - Already Gone | ] |
Its time that i move on with my life, indeed i am moving on slowy starting to be a better person and i really want to. Well it take time but i will work hard for it, i seriously dont know what i have become but i will be back to the same old kevin the good one indeed. Chalet is coming 5 more days to go crazy. Sat i need to like give out invitations to random girls haha weird i know but oh well who cares its a party. Anyone is invited just dont do get us into trouble lol well wow. I hope i sleep tonight wake up the next morning feeling this whole month never exsists. Cause this year has been crazy and great. |
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| Ashamed!! |
[May. 30th, 2009|06:46 pm] |
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| | Home!! | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | disappointed | ] |
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| | Secondhand Serenade - Why | ] |
Everytime i go to bed i felt calm and its peaceful feeling there is nothing to worry and when you wake up its going to be a new and exciting day everything is so brighten up. But i woke up today seeing the world as a nightmare i woke up feeling scared and i shiver. Where am i? It felt like i dont even know myself. I am turning crazy slowly.....i need to run away far away, i want to start a new life. The past is haunting me i am turning into someone who i am not. How did this happen.....whats going on. Everytime i lie on the bed i see myself wanting to be dead so everything could be peaceful. But no i am back to be some emo fuck head. No life aint over for me. I gonna to go through this crazy world and fight back my fear. Running away or even killing myself wont slove no shit. But at this current momment i am sorry everyone for being a big time fucker, i know i am a selfish fucker. But i will asure you all that it wont happen again and yet i make another mistake again. I am gonna start all over again knowing the past stays and it wont leave. Its okay its in me already i am used to it being there. I wish one day i woke up forgetting everything in the past at least i feel fresh and a new. But at the same time scared. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 30th, 2009|10:38 am] |
hey baby i love you, text me when you see this.
Breeeeee. |
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| Chapter 1 |
[May. 6th, 2009|01:53 pm] |
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| | HOME!! | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | numb | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | She is still around | ] |
How is it like to finally be apart someone once important in your life, sometimes the world is pretty unfair seeing how no matter what you do, you end up being the one in blame. I am always stuck, what move should i make, there is one last chance i willing to give in everything i had again to change if we could. But no she just show me something that this is not worthy my heart for her aint right at all. Someone deserve it better someone out there i am waiting again.
How i felt when we were going down haha the song Numb by Linking Park says it all.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
?Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Its sad how two person fell in love end up just wanting to tear each another up the next momment who is in the wrong? Who is the one to blame...... well we both. |
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| I Am Lock Inside!! |
[Mar. 23rd, 2009|02:58 am] |
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I just dont know what to say..... I know i have been a real ass knowing that i didth really treat you well bri but somehow you know i do want to change for the better for the both of us. I always love and i do care. But why do u always say i didth sacrifice at all and i didth care. Those words and many more just cut me, slitting my throat till i cant speak or more like i cant say anything anymore. But you know wat bir i love you and i really do. I am so sorry for everything. |
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| first in century |
[Mar. 4th, 2009|08:55 pm] |
hello boyf. heh :]
text me when you see this. |
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